This week, I'm listing three experiences I'm grateful for. Lately, I've been thinking a lot about the person I was, the person I am, and the person I want to be. I've been reflecting on what experiences have most shaped me and made me feel most alive. What experiences brought out the best in me? What brought out the worst in me? What helped me grow? The the experiences I'm most grateful for were ones that happened because I took a chance. Here are three of them....
Going away for college.
I was young, I was naive, and I wanted to get away. I won't say that college was the best time of my life. In fact, it was probably the most difficult time in my life. I ditched the plains of Nebraska for sunny California, and it was shockingly painful. It was filled with people I couldn't connect with, in a place I wasn't sure I wanted to be, and I spent most of it sleeping (seriously). It may not have been the best time socially or emotionally for me, but what it did was crack the world open for me. It introduced me to amazing teachers, women who had worked hard and lived out their dreams. It showed me that I could survive on my own, even if being on my own was tough.
Doing that yoga training.
I was heartbroken and very bored with myself and my life. I was sick of being in survival mode, and I was desperate to make big changes. I'm not sure if I even wanted to teach, but I knew I needed to focus my energy on myself and this body of mine. I decided a yoga training was just what I needed. And it was. I was forced to open up, to put myself out there, to sit still with my thoughts.
Taking that internship.
I used to spend a lot of time talking about what I wanted to do instead of doing what I wanted to do. I had spent years doing jobs I hated because they were what I was comfortable with and what I was sure I was capable of. I was afraid to try something new, afraid of being labeled incompetent. And then I saw an article about a woman who was doing amazing things. She had her own company, had carved out her own path with her very rare skillset. I wanted to be that women, or, maybe not her...just like her. I wanted to be that kind of woman. And so, I sent her an email. I asked if she need an intern. We met. I worked for free for 6 months doing whatever she asked of me. She never told me I was incompetent. In fact, she told me I was smarter than most. It boosted my confidence. It made me realize that you can learn anything if you want to learn anything and that clear and honest communication will get you a long way.